I'm not nearly as confused as I thought I'd be - Rebecca Belew

Yeah, you heard that right. I'm really not that confused.

Gatore is easy to understand if you relate to feeling surges of deep emotion pretty often.
Gatore wrote this as a way to elegantly express his frustration and depression as well as tell his story.

Gatore writes about a girl, presumably a fictitious recreation of what he had done and what he had wished to do after the Rwandan Genocide. I believe the way he describes Isaro's emotions and thoughts are a very good example of what many people feel after they have lost themselves. They feel like they are swimming and then drowning in thoughts that do not relent. Isaro's overdose and failing to physically die shows just how broken she, and subsequently Gatore, feels about life after tragedy.

Even the internal story of Niko portrays the helplessness of those that feel unable to do anything about the situation they are in, or the situation they experienced. Niko's dream, after being knocked out by getting hit in the head with a jar, is strange, but it is an allegory. His dream was a sign that something bad was about to happen, and the dream in and of itself had multiple allusions to what would soon take place. All these things that have happened, that happened previous to the genocide, all forewarned of the event. These warnings, small sections of killing and hostility, these were the signs of a genocide in the making. Yet, the signs people received were lost among translation, from the dream world to the real one, and confusion after they had been translated into real life terms.

Gatore writes Niko as mute, maybe simply because he was the one that held the information, yet did not know how to tell anyone early enough to shut it down. Niko has the knowledge, but not the words. All the ones with words have no knowledge. Isaro feels helpless because she got to leave, she did not have to stay, but instead she got rescued. And she feels guilty for it  her depression seems to place her where can cannot recover. Niko escapes to dream worlds because Isaro wishes these things.

Gatore is not hard to understand, if you have met your own inner Niko.

Comments: Eliza & Moriah

Comments

lwhite said…
Wow I really like rhe phrase you ended with. You have brought great insight!
This honestly helped me understand the novel a lot better! Thank you so much for your insight! I had a hard time understanding this novel simply because I think in a very linear and concrete way, and this is the most abstract narrative I've encountered in a long time. I expect Gatore's outbursts in poems and in prose, but it really threw me for a loop in a narrative format. This will be a blog post that I revisit as we continue to read.
Breanna Poole said…
The raw emotion in this story is intersting, as having very emotional characters often make it hard for the reader to understand but in this case it make's it simpler as thinking abstractly can be easy once you make yourself do it. I enjoyed your blog post as it quite elegantly illustrated what it is Gatore is trying to do with his characters.